Feeling down low

What happens when you finally find someone who has the same taste with you and wants to pursue the same career as you. You decide to become bestfriends and that someone agrees to that relationship. You're the happiest person on earth. Then your new bestfriend starts getting to know your friends and she becomes really close to them, a lot more close than she is to you. (keep in mind that you're both bestfriends). Slowly, you realize that she talks much more to them than she does to you. You can't help it but to wonder why and to start questioning. So you ask her once, she doesn't want to tell you. Then you ask her again but she still doesn't want to tell you why. You to end up in a tight spot and conflict arises accompanied by awkwardness that's starting to build. You don't talk to each other.

After a few days, you start talking to her on msn but things are still really awkward. You see her in college but she ignores you. Then you try texting her but all you get are those "short, i don't wanna talk to you kinda replies" Then you get fed up and you give her a one word reply. Then she finally decided to step out of the box and say something.

The whole convo exactly as sms'ed. unedited! NO TWISTING OF WORDS! Ps. Im not trying to get ppl to support me or ppl to sympathize, i got no time for that! I got no time for twisting words, i was just trying to cut things short.

"i don't like talking to emo ppl"

Only emo cause you refuse to tell me things but oh, well... If u don't want to tell me things. Fine. We don't have to talk about it. I'm also TIRED of trying to find out.

I'm sorry if I don't tell everyone everything. There are certain things i'd like to keep to myself. if you want to find out so badly, go ask around.

I already know. I just wanted you to tell me. how would you feel if I am your bestfriend and I always talk to your close friends about things rather than you?

what do you know? I have one and only one best friend. I didn't expect the bestfriend thing to be so serious.

It ain't serious! What am I then? cause you tell my friends everything and they're just friends that you just got to know? So what am I?

I don't tell them everything. I tell them whats been going on with you because i don't know what to do with you. And they're the ones who know you better than i do. You were my good friend before you got all sensitive with me.

Dude. they tell me everything, they're my friends. you don't have to do anything, just be the friend you were before all of this. Forget whatever that happened ecause i don't think there's any other way and now that i know that im just your goodfriend. I won't be sensitive no more. you don't have to tell me anything.

I didn't have to tell you anything i didn't want to in the first place. if you weren't so sensitive in the first place maybe it would have been easier to tell you things. Plus I've only gotten to know you the few days before raya weekend. makes no difference from how long i've know your friends.

You just shod've told me we're just friends and never have agreed to the bestfriends thing. Cause im like that to my bestfriends. when it comes to my bestfriends, yes i'm sensitive. Feeling like an insignificant bestfriend is the reason why i got sensitive.

Not my problem you felt like my bestfriend. I don't think i did anything.

I've got nothing to say.

Taxi Driver


Just watched Taxi Driver again. Martin Scorsese is fuckin' awesome! You know the first time i watched it, i hated the movie. I thought it was just slow, boring and nothing was making sense. This time I manage to get the symbolism and all that shit. The part where he gives the crumpled $20 bill to the brothel owner and how he's in bright lighting and the owner walks into the dark. Pure genius! Oh and the intro credits to this movie is so new york and so bloody stylistic-ly shot. SO if you can get your hands on a copy of this movie, go watch it! but I must worn, please watch it when you're fully awake!

PS. I saw something really disgusting at the men's bathroom which i visited after Pelham 123. Owh god, if I ever get into the DETAILS .. yiKES!

I luv' u Michael!



YOU ROCK MY WORLD! YOU KNOW YOU DID!

It was the 1996 History Tour when i first saw MJ. My 2 uncles worked backstage and they manage to sneak me and my mum in. The moment he did smooth criminal, I was sure i was a fan! and forever will be. HE, it was HE that got me interested with music!

His death was too sudden. Too much to take, still is. Come back MIKE! please...

Seeing Paris talk about her father at the memorial just broke my heart.
"daddy has been the best father you could ever imagine"

My condolences to the Talauenga Brothers, I feel sad for you guys, he was your teacher. I wonder how it felt working next to a legend. Never let his moves die! NEVER. Hope to see you guys in LA sometime soon.

"Maybe now Michael, they'll leave you alone" RIP

My Final Short in LA



My short film which i completed at NYFA. It's a twisted story, so pay attention.

I must say that this video is not controlled or planned rather very emotional. I was going for the quentin tarantino look, in one of the blood drip scene. The main character the Killer/Boyfriend (doubleact) has stared in the upcoming movie Public Enemy.

Really looking for suggestions, so keep them pouring in. Don't worry, i won't be offended, i just want to get better. Those hate comments, I love them. So go ahead and amuse me. LOL

Old Old Party Poloroids

We shall add to this soon. we SHALL. *hints






when everyone was friends with everybody.

Angels & Demons


It's movies like this that make me wanna make movies! God where should i start???

Ok first lets set the records straight, it's already definitely, positively, undeniably in my TOP 10 list!!!
Directed by Ron Howard, haven't seen much of his movies. Except for some editing flaws here and there, the movie's practically perfect. How he captured the detailed architecture of the vatican, though most of it was made up, it just boggles my mind. It still does! The movie took me for an emotional ride that i haven't felt since movies like "The Gladiator" and "Titanic".

Remember that part where he takes the bomb and flies upwards with the chopper. God, it was so grandly done! I felt the moment from within. I shall stop trying to describe how great the movie was for me, cause movies like this surpasses the boundaries of being able to be described by words alone.

"It's movies like this that make me wanna make movies"
Why I want to become a director? here's the answer... to create a world of my own, that i can only live through movies! THAT'S WHY

Snoop's in College


So yeah, college has started or at least orientation is done. So far, so good. I met Anna for lunch after orientation, gossiped'. I like the whole open mindedness about the place. The guy who did the whole counseling/sex ed thing was HILARIOUS. My seniors rock btw and yes, they have already started calling me SNOOP DOGG and did the whole "drop it like it's hot thing". ADP has a lot of korean people in it. According to my seniors ADP itself isn't big, i mean the population. Oh! and the good news, ADP will be moving to the new campus next year. Prayers worked! CAN'T WAIT!!!

First semester, i've only got 2 subjects, ENG 101 and IT! ROFLMAO but they said the ENG 101 is shit hard and we have to do it in half the time the march intake students got. On another note, prom's coming up, July 13th. I think i'm gonna help out with the entertainment section cause the student council has really weird but cool people in them. LOL After prom will be the 1 month summer break. July 13th -August 17th.

PS. I think the main campus is scary, it's a different world altogether there! *gasps "the dark side"