Went to see the counselor today, i thought to myself that i can't go on like this so i thought i would go see her. She had some good advice, she kinda changed my mindset on counseling. But it was all JUST WORDS to mellow the emotions. She told me to come see her again when i feel like it. I might.

I feel like smoking again. I don't know what i'm doing with my life anymore. That email has kicked off a chain of unwanted emotions and wrong actions.